Who are you?

Who are you… when the adrenaline fades?
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After the fight. After the high turns into a low. After the crash.
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How do you show up when no one is around?
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Who are you when the noise dies and it’s just you.
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How do you treat yourself in the spaces between?
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For me. The adrenaline has left my body after being told some nasty things earlier this week. By a family member. Who was at my wedding. And I’m sad.
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This is the time when it matters most how I show up. How I act. What I say. And how I treat myself.
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Because my body has stopped responding for me. The physical response has passed. And now it’s just me and my brain. And my brain could potentially have it’s way with me right now.
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No one is making sure I show up today as the powerful coach who reminds you of your greatness. Your unique gifts. Your purpose.
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I have no client calls today.
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No children with me this morning making sure all of my attention goes to them and I don’t sink down into the lowest, and deepest places I could go.
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Into fear and self-doubt. So quickly. So easily. It’s right there in front of me. I’m looking at it.
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So how can I look right at this spiral and not dive head first in?
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Because I do this all for me first and foremost.
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Of course I am so very driven by my clients, my family, the women who resonate with my message.
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I get high - straight high - from working with my clients. Knowing I have played a part in someone owning their greatness and making waves, money, and shifts in their own life.
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I keep every single message, comment, and love-note I’ve gotten from someone watching me do my thing and getting something from it.
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But me? That’s who I do this for. That’s who I show up for.
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And a good thing too - because it’s just me today.
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I am being very gentle to myself. I will write this for you. I will walk outside. I will probably cry again. And I will show up as I am.
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Because my intention is for you to show up as you are: Beautiful. Powerful. Raw. In Process. And Perfectly Imperfect.
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I want you to show up for you.
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I’m going to remind you that in the quiet. This is when it matters most how you treat yourself - the choices you make - the steps you take - the words you say - the thoughts you attach meaning to - the way you show up.
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If you know this is how you desire to show up - for yourself - and the side-effect is changing peoples lives? Then we should be working together. No more playing small.
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No one is watching but you. And that’s who matters most.
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I love you today. But I hope you love yourself even harder.
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